i stood in the yard for a long time watching moonlight through westward-moving clouds. some of the clouds are thick and swollen with dense moisture, they stay dark with a brilliant white edge. other clouds look torn and the moon noses through them like a swimmer

i'm disappointed that i take no notice of direct sunlight on a cloudless day. it's all the same light really. or i'm just disappointed

my younger daughter sadie is a special kind of contrarian, really more of a serial disagreer. when you try to put a sock on one of her feet, she immediately offers the other foot and says "no, this one." if you offer her three cookies, she's as likely to respond that she wants four as two

probably quorum sensing is the new thing everyone should learn everything about

sadie always wants the other one

i'm good at being alone but bad at being lonely

there's no life on the moon, there's no life on mercury, no life on venus, mars, jupiter, the other planets and their moons. fossilized bacterial traces have been found in martian rocks, but long passed. on earth, though, living things are everywhere. get on your belly in the nearest piece of grass and rummage across the soil. or dig beneath your fingernails and look at what you extract under a microscope. there are probably more living organisms in your mouth than there are humans on this planet. given earth's fecundity, it seems more likely that the other planets and moons aren't devoid of life, but that we just can't apprehend it with our senses or devices

robin blaser died. he visited jack spicer in the hospital and coaxed his last couple of sentences out of him: "My vocabulary did this to me. Your love will let you go on."

loneliness is a lack of ability. not of will

burroughs theorized that language was an extraterrestrial virus. maybe light is alive. i've been told that, at times, i have shined

maybe we live in space light like bacteria does in a mouth

maybe light can see us